I never thought after getting a new blog that this is what I would use it for. Well I guess our plans in life are never what we want them to be sometimes. You never know when that phone call will bring you to your knees…..
How it began… we were driving down the road one day and my daughter asked if I was going to heaven? I told her that one day I was. She started crying pretty hard saying she would miss me and not to go. It was a shock to me. I know kids say the darnedest things, but for some reason this got my brain running.
Later on I asked my hubby about getting life insurance. I knew they would make us get a blood test so figured I would get one done. Now just 6 months ago it was normal so I wasn’t worried. Only 4 days later I got a call to come in then. I had my youngest daughter with me at the time. I got in the car and we went and I was a bit nervous. Doctor said my WBC was 36k and I wasn’t sick so something else was wrong. First thing he said was leukemia and of course I didn’t hear anything after that. He then sent me to a onocologist. Of course after all those test they came back with CML as my diagnoses.
Now hearing cancer and leukemia in the same sentence I freaked out! My children were all I could see! Would I be able to watch them grow? The doc said yes and CML isn’t curable but treatable. Those of you who know me and myfamily we are as organic as you can be. I don’t even take meds for a headache more less a med for ever that has bad side effects and I’m sure isn’t good for your entire body ESP your liver!!
After much prayer I will take the drug to get my blood under control but I know in my heart I won’t take it forever! Cancer doesn’t come out of the blue folks it’s there for many years and mainly due to lifestyle! I will beat this!!
Im blessed to have an amazing support team that will keep me afloat when I feel like sinking!! SO from here on out no negative ONLY positive! Everyday I will post my walk and ow Gods working in me and my blessings!!
The past few weeks through the pain I see the world through another set of eyes. I watch the sun come up and set knowing God gave me another day instead of watching it pass. I notice the little things like my girls playing and the sound of their feet running on the wood floors. I look at my husband with a love I never knew I could ever feel for a man. The I love you’s are more than a saying, but a deep meaning from the heart!
Positives: through this after 5 years my father asked to call me, people who haven’t prayed in years prayed for me, I met new friends who also fight this disease and I have seen my husband grow so much in Christ!
Im sure as time ticks on that even more will happen!
This isn’t the end of my journey but a start to a new life.
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. (1 Peter 1:6, 7 NIV)